Review | Beside Myself by Ann Morgan

Title:   Beside Myself

Author:  Ann Morgan

Published by:  Bloomsbury Publishing

Publication Date :  14th January 2016

Rating:  4/5 Stars

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It hurts, but the sensation is good, clarifying, giving a focus for your dispersed, rambling thoughts ~Smudge

Beside Myself is the debut novel from Ann Morgan and all I can say is wow, I really loved this book.  The first thing that caught my attention was the cover, such a simple yet striking design, I just had to find out more.  The story itself is about identical twin girls Helen and Ellie.  Helen is the popular, more capable and intelligent twin while Ellie has some challenges that set her apart from Helen in the eyes of both her mum and her peers.  She is the less popular twin. 

Then one day at the age of 6, Helen and Ellie decide to swap places.  It was only supposed to be a game, it was only supposed to be for one day.  But what happens when one twin, the unpopular twin decides that she likes her new persona and doesn’t want to give it back.

When Ellie refuses to switch back, Helens nightmare begins, a nightmare that she can never wake up from.  She loses everything, her toys, her clothes, her friends, her glowing record at school, the favour of her mother and the future she had dreamed of.  She loses her identity.  As the years pass, not only do the memories of that day fade but so too does her sense of self until eventually only “Smudge” is left.

This is a gripping and psychological read with many serious and confronting themes throughout,  abuse, mental health,  toxic relationships, self harm, fractured identities to name a few.  But the one thing I can say about this story is that it makes for a compulsive, unputdownable read with characters that have been written with the greatest of sympathy.  It is fast paced and at no point does it fail to get into your head and draw you in.  Beside Myself is one of the best books I have read this year.

I would recommend this book to anyone that likes a powerful psychological read.  It deals with the darkness that surrounds mental health.  The reader really gets a feel for what it is like to be Smudge and just how broken and despondent one becomes when your sense of identity becomes fractured.  The unravelling of her persona was so well crafted by the author that I could not get this story out of my head, I thought about it for days and when the book ended I couldn’t read another book for a week while I tried to reconcile myself with Smudge’s life and the many trauma’s she had to endure.

I took off one star as it took me some time to get into the story.  I felt confused for the first 50 or so pages about what was going on and which twin was which.  I did however reach a point where I became more confident about their identities and from there really got into the story.  I reached a point in fact where this book became impossible to put down and I just had to reach the end and find out Smudge’s fate.

 This book played with my emotions big time and that is why I liked it so much.  I really rooted for Smudge and couldn’t understand why no one else ever did.  Her story really pulled at my heart strings.  A fantastic read with a protagonist like no other you will ever meet.  A must read for anyone who wants an emotionally engaging story.

I would like to thank Netgalley and Bloomsbury Publishing for the ARC copy of Beside Myself that I received.  To find out more about this book or to pre-order please follow the below links.

Amazon UK | The Book Depository | Goodreads

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27 thoughts on “Review | Beside Myself by Ann Morgan

    • Nicola | Rust and Stardust says:

      Its been a crazy day Simon. There was a massive car crash on the motorway in Dublin and traffic was gridlocked everywhere as a result. It took me two hours to do the school run this morning. I had to just ditch the car and run to school in the end.

      But when I heard what happened and that a woman was left fighting for her life in hospital, it put a lot of things in perspective for me. How is your Wednesday going?

      If you do ever get round to reading Beside Myself I would love to know what you think.

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    • Nicola | Rust and Stardust says:

      Thanks so much Lucy, I’m so pleased you liked the review and might read it with your book group. Only 2 more months until it’s published. I think Ann Morgan might be an author to watch out for.

      I would love to be part of a book group, there is one in my local library but there is no one even close to my age in it. I am on two Facebook book groups though, it’s not quite the same but it is a good outlet to have 😊

      I would love to set my own one up but my friends aren’t big into reading. Just as well I started my blog 💕

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  1. aentee @ read at midnight says:

    Oh wow, the premise of this book sounds terrifying yet so intriguing, I definitely need to pick this one up. I’ve been craving for some intense psychological reads, and this one seems to fit the bill with its compelling characters. Fantastic review 😀

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    • Nicola | Rust and Stardust says:

      Thanks a million Aentee, I’m so happy that you enjoyed my review. I would highly recommend it, it can be a little confusing at times when you are getting to know the twins but I guess that is to be expected. When I got to the end I was disappointed because I missed the protagonist, she had become like a friend 💛💚💛

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